Exhausted

Sorry for the lack of updating, my loyal followers. A lot has been going on, and I have been trying not to get too excited... trying to prevent a rollercoaster like last time, I guess. I am mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. My body is tired and hurting. My boobs are huge, I am bloated and have gained 7lbs, and I have headaches and am emotional and borderline crazy-pants at times. Okay, enough complaining. Sorry about that :)


So I stopped meds on 12/21, and had a period on 12/26. It was not bad at all, not anything like I was expecting! We started meds on 12/29 and we raised my estrogen earlier this time, in hopes of preventing my thin lining problem that we experienced last time. Unfortunately, it didn't work. I had my ultrasound on Monday, and my lining was measuring 6.2mm. (Remember, they want it between 8 and 12) My blood levels of estrogen were still good, so they left my dosing the same and just gave me some more time to let my lining get thicker. I had my repeat ultrasound today and my lining was still only 6.8 :( Last time when we gave it more time, it got up to about 8mm. No one is really sure why that didn't happen this time. Now the plan is for me to do vaginal suppositories of Viagra (yes VIAGRA!) for 3 days and have a repeat ultrasound again on Monday. Since Viagra increases blood flow, (hehe) the thought is that the vaginal suppositories will help increase the blood flow to my uterus. If my lining is at least 8, we will transfer next Saturday. If it isn't thick enough, we are canceling and then deciding what to do from there.


Please, please, PLEASE send me some thick, fluffy vibes, and some good luck. I am very discouraged, worried, and disappointed. I know feeling that way isn't going to help anything, but I can't help but feel like my body is failing my IP's. I will update after my ultrasound on Monday.


Thanks for reading
xoxo